Hey, I put some new shoes on...

... and suddenly everything is right- now wouldn't that be great!

For the last 10 days I have sat (im)patiently by my phone waiting for it to ring. I have allowed myself to accept that it is not going to but that doesn't stop it being just a little bit painful. Once again, I've been rejected and rejection in any sense is painful. What I possibly find harder is that the person who has rejected me this time asked me why I lacked confidence. I felt myself letting go and believing that something may actually happen and that this person might come to care for me. People have been reassuring, telling me that there could be any number of reasons why I am still waiting for that phone call. This is of course true and anything could happen but there comes a point when you have to be realistic and that is the stage I have reached.

My mum once said something to me about myself that has really stuck with me and struck a chord. She told me that no matter what life throws my way, I have the ability to pick myslef up, put my face back on adn get on with it. So that's exactly what I intend to do and is precisely why I'm heading up to London this weekend. It's just a little chance to escape and I am looking forward to it more than anything, despite the fact that no one else seems to be around!! That doesn't matter though. What does matter is that, courtesy of the aforementioned Mum, I have a fab pair of new shoes and an amazing handbag so I can look hot! :) Although these material objects may not make my phone ring, the fact that when I said to Mum I had fallen in love with a handbag and she replied with "you can have that too then", I assured her she didn't have to do that her response was "you deserve it". That kind of love makes me feel a million dollars and I'm happy in the kowledge that there will always be someone who sees me and treats me as a princess. Who cares if that person is my Mum!

Xx