Thursday, 19 May 2011

A Pirates Life for me

After my overwhelming desire on the train to London to get my Johnny Depp as a pirate fix, I made a trip to the cinema yesterday to get the big screen experience.


Pirates of the Carribean 4: On Stranger Tides is definitely a better film than the last one. I'm no film critic and certainly would never claim to be so this is purely my opinion (which is essentially what a critics review is anyway). Why is it so much better? There is no irritating Keira Knightly with her super skinny figure and ridiculous voice getting in the way. There is no Orlando Bloom attempting to be a kind and forgiving kind of pirate. Whilst to many people, these are serious downpoints, to me; definitely not! Just give me pure, unadulturated, Johnny Depp pirate :) The fourth film managed to go one better though and threw in Penelope Cruz pirate. Whilst I find Keira Knightly's 'rich girl with a pirate attitude' act far too much of an act, Penelope Cruz as a pirate is far more convincing and definitely way sexier! This even had me debating about who was hotter- Pirate Johnny or Pirate Penelope- can I have both please?!! mmmm that sounds like fun ;) Although it was all pretty stereotypical spanishy piratey, it was still damn sexy and the two of them together work way way better than Johnny and Keira ever could. Throw into the film the rugged christian sailor and the exquisitely beautiful mermaid he falls in love with and this film becomes far too full of attractive people and a set that would definitley be worth a visit!


When you have that many beautiful people to look at for just over 2 hours, I'm honestly not all that fussed about the plot but again, film 4 surpassed film 3. (my opinion only!). Whereas film 3 had me totally confused with an exessively twisted plot, film 4 went back to the old rule of keeping it simple. In a time when we have films such as Inception and Shutter Island thrust at us with their inconceivably knotted plots, it's pretty refreshing to have a film that starts at the beginning and ends at the end. Definitely worth a watch- even if it is just for the eye candy :)


Xx

Monday, 16 May 2011

A Weekend in the City

I knew I missed London but I don't think it hit me how much I missed it until I was on the train back to Devon at 8pm last night.


I arrived in the beautiful capital at 10:30 pm on Friday night after a busy day of appointments and work, hopped off the train with the most useless of wheelie cases we own wearing my standard uniform of highly impractical shoes and headed towards the tube. I checked how much I had left on my oyster and made my way towards Farringdon to find Sarah's workplace. My parents, particularly my Dad, had made it clear that whilst they were happy for me to go away and felt that it was something that I needed to do, they were worried about me. Part of me understands this but at the same time, London is one of the places I feel safest. Walking down the streets late on a Friday night, making my way towards the restaurant where Sarah works, I never once felt vulnerable in any way. The restaurant was an energetic place despite being at the stage where the bar was closing. The staff were all so lovely and Sarah introduced me to each of them as and when she could. They all made sure that I was happy and that I had a drink which is always appreciated after a long day and a long train journey! Once all packed up for the night, Sarah and I walked to her apartment. She has managed to find a great set-up which is a step up from University accomodation but is not as expensive as a central London flat. She has a room and en-suite with a shared kitchen in a modern and secure building. A long catch up and gossip later and we slept like logs until much later than I've done in a long while- we both clearly needed it!


I'm a breakfast person. I NEED my breakfast and get seriously grumpy if I don't get it. I don't care what time of day I wake up, the first meal of the day has to be breakfast. On our little sailing weekend a few weekends back, we discovered that Cafe's in small Cornish towns don't serve breakfast after 10:30/11am. London- a different ball game altogether! We found a great place where we could get a good breakfast and a much needed cup of tea until 2pm. Not only that, the place also had a bar/club out of which people were still stumbling out whilst others inside were still going and probably intending to keep doing so until Sunday. Once fully awake, Sarah and I took a walk around the area which has an amazing selection of boutiques and vintage shops- I can see Cherry Cherry fitting in so perfectly! If only I could afford to do so... ahhh we can but dream... Not long after, Lois arrived and was in need of food so back we went to the cafe for a catch up and gossip! Lois is in the process of setting up an online vintage shop- massively exciting and writes a fab blog which you can find here! There was definitely not enough time in the day to talk about everything so I'll just have to head back soon... what a shame!


Later that evening, I donned my new shoes :) and made my way to Leicester Square to meet Ben. Now as much as I love the buzz of London, Leicester Square was heaving! I've never seen it like that before except when there's an event going on. A quick trip to the theatre ticket booth later and we had ourselves a pair of decently priced tickets to see 'Jersey Boys'. After more food and more gossip, we made our way to the theatre. Although it's not a show that's been at the top of my list, I would totally recommend it to anyone! I know I'm probably not the best person to recommmend any show as I usually get so involved that I think most are amazing but this really was a great show. The guy playing Frankie Valli had the most incredible voice I have ever heard and the ballads were particularly captivating. The one irritating thing that you will almost inevitably find with a show like this is that the majority of the audience will know the songs and there will always be someone who feels the urge to sing along slightly out of tune and slightly out of time. On Saturday night, that person was sitting behind me. I won't say that I didn't sing along at all as that would be a lie but I did limit myself and at least I know that when I sing it is in tune and is in time! After a stroll towards Covent Garden with Ben reminding me to post the bills that I'd been carrying around, we went our seperate ways.


Sunday morning I met Sarah at Kings Cross to return her key and in typical Sarah style she had left her railcard at her boyfriends place and was waiting for her train home... It was retrieved in the nick of time as is also Sarah's style! I spent the morning around Oxford Circus trying to get stock only to discover that whilst the rest of London is open on a Sunday, wholesalers are not. Lesson learned. After a mooch around Carnaby street I made my way towards Charing Cross to meet a slightly worse for wear Bex for lunch. We ended up in Covent Garden in a pub that I remember as being much less pricey and much more relaxed last time I went there. Another lesson learned. Food was good though and the cure magician kinda made it worth it. Once Bex had made a move back home, I made my way back towards Trafalgar Square and took advantage of one of the free things to do in London- The National Gallery. Not only is it free entry but the cloakroom is also free so I was relieved of my wheelie case for a while! I do enjoy looking at art but I've discovered that I'm quite picky about what I find worth looking at. A lot of what is in the National isn't what I like. There is quite a lot of religious art and whilst I think something like the Cistine Chapel is incredible, many of these are quite garish and full on. I was quite excited to find that they were doing a renaissance art exhibition but was disappointed to find that this particular exhibition would cost me a whole £10! At least wondering around allowed me some time to recover from pulling the suitcase everywhere and I could just be and recover.


I finished my day by heading back up Regent Street to Carnaby Street where I once found a great little cafe that was a bit like an american diner and served the most fantastic pancakes. I'd been craving them all day so found the cafe, which was still serving the pancakes but had changed the decor. It's now a hawaian themed place called 'Kua 'Aina'. I have to say that whilst I can see how it fits in with the area more now, I much prefered it as it was before. It just felt a bit grottier before and as strange as that sounds, it was just a bit more comfortable. That being said, the food was just as good and the staff are really friendly so I'll almost certainly go back again! By this time it was 5pm and I made my way to Paddington. Although my train wasn't until 8, I was happy to sit with my book and just relax.


There are so so many things I love about London; the fact that I feel so safe there, that whatever you wear, people don't stare and people are on the whole well dressed. I think this is part of what makes me feel so comfortable and safe. I like to dress up and make an effort with what I wear but in Plymouth and Devon in general this draws attention in a way that isn't always appreciative and is more often sleazy. In London however, I can happily wear what I want and know that I'm an not going to be the best or worst dressed person on the street. I may get a few looks but these are more likely to be admiring glances than the leers I get at home. When it comes to how other people dress, in Plymouth usually 90% of people look like they can't be bothered and don't care how they look, whereas in London it's 90% that do care how they look and pull off whatever look they might be going for.


Despite how much I love London though, I know that for the time being, there is no chance of me moving away from home. The situation as it is means that the support I get from my parents, both financially and emotionally is the most important thing for me at the moment so moving out and moving the shop will have to wait until things are more stable.


Xx

Wednesday, 11 May 2011

Hey, I put some new shoes on...

... and suddenly everything is right- now wouldn't that be great!


For the last 10 days I have sat (im)patiently by my phone waiting for it to ring. I have allowed myself to accept that it is not going to but that doesn't stop it being just a little bit painful. Once again, I've been rejected and rejection in any sense is painful. What I possibly find harder is that the person who has rejected me this time asked me why I lacked confidence. I felt myself letting go and believing that something may actually happen and that this person might come to care for me. People have been reassuring, telling me that there could be any number of reasons why I am still waiting for that phone call. This is of course true and anything could happen but there comes a point when you have to be realistic and that is the stage I have reached.


My mum once said something to me about myself that has really stuck with me and struck a chord. She told me that no matter what life throws my way, I have the ability to pick myslef up, put my face back on adn get on with it. So that's exactly what I intend to do and is precisely why I'm heading up to London this weekend. It's just a little chance to escape and I am looking forward to it more than anything, despite the fact that no one else seems to be around!! That doesn't matter though. What does matter is that, courtesy of the aforementioned Mum, I have a fab pair of new shoes and an amazing handbag so I can look hot! :) Although these material objects may not make my phone ring, the fact that when I said to Mum I had fallen in love with a handbag and she replied with "you can have that too then", I assured her she didn't have to do that her response was "you deserve it". That kind of love makes me feel a million dollars and I'm happy in the kowledge that there will always be someone who sees me and treats me as a princess. Who cares if that person is my Mum!


Xx

Saturday, 7 May 2011

I'm confused.


People tell me I'm insecure for no reason. I am insecure. But from what I can tell at the moment, this is with pretty good reason. I've been single now for 5 years. In that time, I've had a few guys show interest and then just stop. Nothing. Either that or I get srung along with the old "I really like you, but I've just come out of a relationship and I'm not ready" line. That's why, when I met a lovely sailing gentleman last weekend, I told myslef that I wouldn't get my hopes up. Yet here I am waiting for the promised phone call, checking my phone every two minutes and refusing to send another message lest I seem like a crazy stalker type person, the kind of girl I never wanted to be. The kind of girl who texts incessantly and demands answers- that's just not fair to anyone! But at the same time, I want the damn answers! I want the reasons why I get to a certain stage and then get ignored. I'm not a particularly crazy, obsessive, extreme girl and do have some good personality traits (despite the odd hanger obsession).


What annoys me the most is that at this moment, I'm getting myself in a complete state over someone who I knew for less than 48 hours and they have managed to gain this ridiculous hold on me that has, I admit, crushed me a little bit. The bit of confidence I initially gained from the encounter has been destoyed tenfold. It's no wonder then, that I am no longer the same outgoing, confident girl that I have been. The one who isn't afraid to put herself out there.


This is not meant to be a self pitying post, or a plea for attention. Nor is it an attack on men. It is merely a way to express a little frustration!


Xx